A Man Speaks

Derniere vendredi, apres le repas a minuit, c'est une deception. Ce n'est pas le fault de la femme, mais je me tres decu...

The following list made an impact on me at that instant

1. Couple saying table grace together at a alif restaurant below my condo, before eating their prata.
2. Mother talking happily to her toddler, walking past me as i finished my morning jog.
3. Prenant woman being accompanied by her husband on the streets.
4. Elderly couple appearing at my lift lobbby carrying big luggages, apparently came back from a wonderful vacation.

Married life, a life that most people spent a third of their life waiting for. I can say i'm full of envy for married couples, although i know i'm still not ready for it because i have too many weaknesses in many areas that God needs to set it right. I know that He's trying to help me work on my weaknesses first before entrusting me with a great responsibility of taking care of another person, because there's absolutely no possibility of just trying out the feeling of taking care another person; for me it has to be all the way to the end.

A man, after all the battles outside, giving his all fighting for victory, needs someone whom he can really lie his back on at home, and i'm not talking about God, i'm talking about someone in flesh and blood, his wife. Someone who can really support him and knowing that, he can really become stronger as a person, a more complete person. I'm really looking forward to someone who can really complete me, but i know i need some time because i need to work hard to reduce my weaknesses, i know i'll be made strong in God in these areas. Painful? Definitely, that's sanctification, but i know it's good for me. As for her(who i still do not know who she is, but i know she's out there), "please wait for me k? I'm still making progress to be a better and more capable man to take care of you. I'll come and get you one day, till then please wait for me.." =)