dimanche, juillet 02, 2006

The Awakened Boy

A boy having been asleep for quite some time, has awoken. Previously, drunk in fantasies and his dreams, thought that it was cool as his friends were also like that. Gaining the favour of his friends in the name of building rapport; in a way neglected the Father in the family.

He thought things were pleasant, so comfortable thinking of all possibilities, dreaming about it. Sharing with his friends his thoughts at times and the teasing had further fueled the unrealities. Until one day, things do not work out the way he thought they would, disappointment after failing expectations plus discouragement from his teacher. Meantime, he still does his homework but the teacher seldom marks his paper and was turned away when he tried to befriend his teacher. The girl he liked used him as an emotional toy, blowing hot and cold on him. To be ugly with words, he felt a little bit like a prostitute which might be too heavy to be used in his context.

Suddenly, weather has been exceptionally cloudy, heavy raining at times. He was caught in the rain, looking up to heaven, crying out, "Why?! Why me?" He tried to sleep all those things away, thinking that will help. Gravitational reality, pulls him back down to earth. Undeniable, he has to face all this amidst fears of even going back to his darkened home. Questions asked were left unanswered and comtemplations of suicide were entertained. Then he was stopped in his tracks when he heard God saying that He wants to help him, so he decided to just take a step at a time and allow the Holy Spirit to lead his way.

Finally, the awakening phase starts to set in; he realised that his home is not really darkened but it's about how well he can play "the game" at home; his teacher cant be his friend because he does not need to, he's a teacher and his job is just to teach only; he let go his discontent with the girl that he likes.

"The game" at home does not state that it's necessary to slay all monsters that come your way, you have the option to avoid it. Currently, quite a few monsters have been avoided and the boy had already level up at home. His teacher's only job is just to teach without any obligations to make friends with students in any way, and students must complete their homework on time, but schools do not state that teachers must mark it within a certain time limit and pass it back to students. He found out that the girl that he likes is actually just a crush, upon closer examination, their conversations have always been very superficial. Although he cried so many times, suppressing the feelings of being used as a source of comfort, ironically, he accepted it and was glad he was there for her for those times. Previously condemning her actions, but was softened when he saw how much burden she took hold of.

Miraculous turn of unexpected series of events only taught the boy a very important lesson of individuality in times of unforeseen circumstances