It's been awhile, been too much...

I recall Nelly Furtado's song, "Flames to Dust, Lovers to Friends... Why do all good things come to an end..."

Indeed, when the flames were distinguished, it became dust, nothing at all. Do people remember that dust was once a flame or do they believe only what they see? From lovers, we finally became just friends, but I want something deeper from you and within you. Why do all good things come to an end? Is there an answer out there? No? Or we should dig out questions we have most often ignored, that why do bad things can come to an end too?

Love & Hate
Do I still love you knowing that you will most probably not reciprocate back this love or should I hate you for that? In love there's hate about your characteristics, which I'm willing to look over it and in order to hate you, I must have loved you enough to list out what I hate about you; love and hate must have been just separated by a thin line only.

My Emos
Cry out to God, when He seems so far away, even with His peace, might just be temporary only. I need constant prayers to make it right. Exams are self explanatory, work hard and you will reach your expectations, but for relationships with people, it seems so radical and illogical. I've been working hard at every single thing, chasing you all over again, I keep telling myself it's worth the effort. However, when I tried to touch you, you shun away, breaking my heart to see you like that, I took it in my stride anyway. Tell me what you feel, how you feel towards me, I need to hear them. I have faith you feel the same way too.

Do I love you? Or do I just love physical contact with the opposite sex? If so, then I could have just got it on with any other girls right? And if so, then 'true love' must have been a myth, but there's only 'committed affection' right? Or I can actually get over you easily? And if so, then does that mean I do not love you enough? And again if so, then why do I feel that I skipped a beat when I see you again? Does love mean that as long as you can feel relatively happy with a girl that you are fated to meet and be willing enough to overlook her imperfections, then that's love?

Who can answer all these questions? To conclude: It's difficult for a guy and a girl to come together as one... I'm still loving you...